Amelia, If Only - Hardcover

by Becky Albertalli (Author)

#1 New York Times bestselling author Becky Albertalli (Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda and Imogen, Obviously) is back with another novel of crushes, friendships, and finding love in unexpected places. A 2026 Rainbow Book List pick! Amelia Applebaum isn't in love with Walter Holland. He just happens to be her favorite moderately famous, chaotically bisexual YouTuber. Who she just happened to invite to prom. (But it's fine. No, for real. If you delete the post, it didn't happen.)

Okay, maybe her friends are right: She's slightly parasocially infatuated. But Amelia just knows sparks would fly--if only she could connect with Walter for real.

If only he would host a meet and greet.

If only it were just a short road trip away.

And if only Amelia could talk her best friends into making it the perfect last hurrah before graduation--even her newly single, always-cynical, guitar-toting best friend Natalie.

One thing's for sure: All roads lead to butterflies.

But what if Amelia's butterflies aren't for Walter at all?

• Friends to Lovers Romance: Amelia is chasing a crush on a famous YouTuber, but what happens when she realizes her true feelings are for the best friend who's been in the passenger seat all along?
• The Last Hurrah: One last chaotic adventure before graduation. This pre-college road trip is the perfect final chapter for a group of lifelong friends... or is it a new beginning?
• Forced Proximity: Stuck in a car for hours with your cynical, guitar-playing, newly single best friend? All roads lead to butterflies, but they might not be heading where Amelia expects.
• Parasocial Crush: From a deleted promposal to a meet-and-greet that changes everything, this is a hilarious and heartfelt look at what happens when an online fantasy meets real-life feelings.